Forbidden Urges
your eyes
hold a deep irresistable desire
that i just cant fight
your mouth says no
but your eyes say yes
why cant i resist
your pain
im torn in half
trying to tell myself no
but i know that wont happen
i stand on the cliff
screaming at the top of my lungs
why
in the end i succumb
my darkest desires take over
in my arms
your so much more tempting
all my will power sucked from me
i entwine your lips with thine own
the forbidden bliss
was overwhelming
now i understand why they told
adam and eve not to eat the apples
a consuming fire rages inside
one that burns for your touch
the line crossed
never to redeem, everything lost
pointless
with no specific aim i stumble
i realise im at that cliff again
and understand this is the end
plunging into my eternal abyss
The Fight
the silence
a soul shattering torment
encloses the mind
crafting the very cloud
of a silent scream
agony the only feeling
a desperate desire
to crawl into that ball
and just become numb
fists of psychological fury
straining the invisible chains
pushing limits not meant to be tested
dark solemnity
a calming serenity
will bliss ever be found?
words drift by
they fall on deaf ears
ignorance is bliss
yet its our own torture
how can you fight
against something
you secretly desire
more than your willing to admit
even to yourself
a dark betrayal of the heart
made by thy own will
can the sacrifice ultimately outmatch
the pulsing urges for what
is desperately not right
yet over that bridge you fall
and ill always come diving in after.
tragic cruelty
your beautiful face
utter the words
i thought id never hear
thy heart breaks
as those words leave
your elegant lips
in a whisper
a silent confession
you make
but the words you say
havent the meaning
i so desperately desire
a gentle rose, you offer
the smile of an angel
planted on your face
slowly, grasping the flower
i turn
a quiet agony takes hold
tears stream down
thine taut cheek
sinking to my knees
i weep
your arms wrap around
and offer comfort
futile attempts
at healing reopened wounds
fighting the plea
to beg for your love
another man claims your heart
a consumming jealousy
wreaks a powerful dismay
your cheek rests
upon thine breast
to feel the slow beat of
a broken heart
embracing, your soul
starts to repair
the damage caused
by lifes bitter extent
nothing can do what
thy does to me
in your ear ill whisper
a final time with heart
mustering all meaning and solemnity
"i love you"
as your torn away from me again
all await your return
with darkness haunting me
from the moment you leave
your stunning light
will free me again.
Bitter Sweet
day after day
the autumn leaves fall
time seems to stop as
your looming figure
pauses and waits
holding your hand out
a leaf falls and lands
silently almost effortlessly
into your palm
little did you know
somewhere
he was thinking of you
a tear brimming in his eye
your elegant beauty
carved as a memory
in his mind
whispers from your lips
haunting, torturing
soul shattered and lain to ash
the consuming winter
frosted a broken heart
turning it stone cold
you let the leaf fall and walk away
head bent low you cry
solemn agony your only comfort
a finely tuned piano
in the background
plays your tragic harmony
the tear falls from his eye
all restraint lost
remorse wreaks havoc in his thoughts
standing, he sinks to his knees
arms out chest bared
leaning back he screams
a symphony of dark pain
true grievance
he hunches over weeping
seperately in two different places
each thinking of the other
they both whisper to themselves
"i love you"
thanks again bloggers for reading :)
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Poetry 11
It has been a while since I've posted but I have written three new poems and am going to post them now, so thanks for your patience.
Flower Poem
the sun fades
revealing a pale crescent moon
patchy clouds covering
the shining stars
a pale rose
floats along
on a stream renowned
for its devastating tragedies
a dark past hidden
the black rose flows
weeping its tears leaking
into the water below
softly a hand reaches in
picking up the flower
her tears subsiding
as she feels the roses' agony
crouching down
she places the widow flower
over the grave
of her fallen lover
taken from her by mans greed
valiency having no part
in the new world
to be hold
the downfall of mankind itself
its inevitable destruction
the end of us all.
Moulin Rouge
dreams
thats how it all starts
blind innocence and then
the betrayal of your imagination
leaking taunted pleasures into your mind
corruption overrides all
sane thoughts
your image planted
never to be diminished within thy soul
a fire brand of darkened beauty
the crimson flash
swift and soft twirls
parading around doomed halls
laying the hidden trap
falling the desire becomes apparent
lustful motions made
heart thumping with utter contempt
within the dying grasp
snatched away by the evil
a gastly mistake that wasnt ment to happen
inevitable fury and jealousy
fights alongside bitter determination
a song emerges
bonding two kindred spirits
in eternal harmony
until fate rips them away
with defying and cruel words
any hope remaining crushed under
the invisible foot of reality
time a slow cruel enemy
not giving any peace of mind to
the dismal and miserable
a final stand
the song sung
like a ballad of resistance
relighting the fire of love
stitching the pieces of the heart
back together entwining souls
lead to a final bittersweet memory
until fate makes its last move
checkmate
game over, everything ends
a cry of anguish
the end of star crossed lovers.
and so her story begins,
in the tortured mind of her lover
"come what may"
he whispers, closing his eyes
as tears of memories
become his lasting solace.
Final Memory
i fall to my knees
isnt that what you always wanted
to see me down
and begging for your mercy
do you feel strength
from taking life from me?
your nothing but
a bitter sweet memory
of pure agony
a dying light
washes over dark remnants
i once heard
that love was
as light as clouds
yet as heavy as rain
i suppose they were right
for even rain must fall
and love never lasts forever
only in fools dreams
and twisted nightmares
with a sigh rent
from the depths of his soul
silent tears of surrender
falling to his knees
he lets the flowers fall from his hands
onto the grave
of his buried beloved
their love only a haunting memory.
his broken bliss.
Flower Poem
the sun fades
revealing a pale crescent moon
patchy clouds covering
the shining stars
a pale rose
floats along
on a stream renowned
for its devastating tragedies
a dark past hidden
the black rose flows
weeping its tears leaking
into the water below
softly a hand reaches in
picking up the flower
her tears subsiding
as she feels the roses' agony
crouching down
she places the widow flower
over the grave
of her fallen lover
taken from her by mans greed
valiency having no part
in the new world
to be hold
the downfall of mankind itself
its inevitable destruction
the end of us all.
Moulin Rouge
dreams
thats how it all starts
blind innocence and then
the betrayal of your imagination
leaking taunted pleasures into your mind
corruption overrides all
sane thoughts
your image planted
never to be diminished within thy soul
a fire brand of darkened beauty
the crimson flash
swift and soft twirls
parading around doomed halls
laying the hidden trap
falling the desire becomes apparent
lustful motions made
heart thumping with utter contempt
within the dying grasp
snatched away by the evil
a gastly mistake that wasnt ment to happen
inevitable fury and jealousy
fights alongside bitter determination
a song emerges
bonding two kindred spirits
in eternal harmony
until fate rips them away
with defying and cruel words
any hope remaining crushed under
the invisible foot of reality
time a slow cruel enemy
not giving any peace of mind to
the dismal and miserable
a final stand
the song sung
like a ballad of resistance
relighting the fire of love
stitching the pieces of the heart
back together entwining souls
lead to a final bittersweet memory
until fate makes its last move
checkmate
game over, everything ends
a cry of anguish
the end of star crossed lovers.
and so her story begins,
in the tortured mind of her lover
"come what may"
he whispers, closing his eyes
as tears of memories
become his lasting solace.
Final Memory
i fall to my knees
isnt that what you always wanted
to see me down
and begging for your mercy
do you feel strength
from taking life from me?
your nothing but
a bitter sweet memory
of pure agony
a dying light
washes over dark remnants
i once heard
that love was
as light as clouds
yet as heavy as rain
i suppose they were right
for even rain must fall
and love never lasts forever
only in fools dreams
and twisted nightmares
with a sigh rent
from the depths of his soul
silent tears of surrender
falling to his knees
he lets the flowers fall from his hands
onto the grave
of his buried beloved
their love only a haunting memory.
his broken bliss.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Yet Another Blog
Wow im starting to write this stuff alot now. I guess its like im spamming the site but not meaning to, well sorry blogspot (: hope you can forgive me. haha anyway this was the blog that i was meant to write before i started spamming it all about poetry and stuff. This is the blog date i had with my friend jess (jnatural.blogspot.com) check her out, shes great. anyway this blog ive decided is going to be about well, i have no real clue as to what its going to be about so ive decided that since it was my idea about the blog date cos my friend needs to add a new post im going to just go freelance and write some rando stuff. lets start by embarrasing her though just for the fun of it and to tell the world. (hahaha sorry jess) Alright to start this blog. Well jess thats all ill call her for security reasons, is by far one of the most amazing people i know, no matter how bad i can get, she stands up for herself and is just incredible. I can always depend on her and she helps me out alot, did i mention she was amazing, anyway. Well shes like an angel to all those around her, she has one of the most caring and kind hearts in the world with a free and beautiful soul. Not to mention shes really really beautiful :)! anyway haha shes like a sister to me and will always mean alot to me! Jess you are a truly treasured gem, with a most wonderful view of life and the people in it, youve taught me many a thing which is appreciated in ways you cant fathom. Anyway im almost done so dont worry folks, not meaning to hold you here forever with my ramblings. Just bout to rap it up now, Jess your an amazing and beautiful girl who will find her path in life and blossom like the most beautiful flower in spring, i believe in you with all my heart and i know youll make one guy the most happiest he'll ever be, ill never be dissapointed in you and never think bad of you. Thank you for everything youve done for me (:
Thanks audience for listening
Shane
Thanks audience for listening
Shane
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Poetry Part 10
Finally! haha this is the last of my current collection of written poems i have constructed, im sorry readers for my poor poems and even my bearable ones, you didnt have to read them but still im sorry however i will write more in future and i hope they are better then before and are actually at the level for entertainment, my new blogs will be normal ones so do not fear for more bad poetry, feel free to comment, thanks alot. :)
"The Point of Strength"
as i fall into the consuming darkness
i see the radiant light you emit
never thought youd come for me
waiting to see if youd catch me
or let me fall deeper into the darkness
desperate i fought to hold onto you
i grew more determined
but i was weakening
i saw the hate in your words
the disgust in your truth
the sickening of my patheticness
a love you no longer gave
the darkness consumed and i was left bloody
destroyed i tore away at walls
letting them down
until the monster inside grew
he took control and his lust for blood and pain
consumed all rational senses
with no one to harm but myself
i found a means to satisfy the monster
my heart torn into pieces i was engulfed
the rage,
the misery,
the emptiness,
the pain,
the consumation.
the fire,
my heart was no more,
i was void of everything but pain
the monster satisfied
i was left with a shell afraid to be
who i was
with the main reason to feel gone
i had nothing
but inside my dimming fire of the soul
i held the memory of you
waiting for your soothing
the memory to be real again
to be captivated in your words
engulfed by your beauty i was a hollow void
i knew you were better off
but i was selfish this one time
wanting to be yours again
i got up in one last attempt
screaming out in agony
the rage banished the demons
i had one last shot at getting you back before i fell
the was no grace for a monster like me
i gave everything to have you back
i felt like i was losing you forever
until you lost your mind
you grabbed my hand and fixed everything
with the new found courage and reason
i rose up
slaughtering all traces of menacing memories
embracing your soul once again
feeling whole i thanked everything
but most of all i thanked you with all i could muster
the resurrection you gave me
though i was lost until you saved me
for a reason i know not
i wouldnt let myself die unless i gave my everything
to have you back ment the world
i felt the beating of your heart
it filled me and repaired me
whole once again
a silent prayer that you never leave me
like this again
"Vengeance"
your shining face
once the epitome of my existance
now the bane of my disgust
you were my light in the dark
the one true dependancy i had
you took everything i had from me
and threw it in my face
made a mockery of who i was
who i wanted to be
you told me pointless lies
that i foolishly believed
my humiliation your victory
what did i do to you?
the love you once had
was all part of your luring trap
the shine in my eyes gone
with your hands you broke
every part of my heart
and clouded my soul in misery
is this what you wanted?
my pain was a glory evident
in your desolate eyes
was i not good enough?
i tried my best
i gave everything i had
yet you tore me down
like i meant nothing
does this bring you satisfaction?
the satisfaction is evident in my eyes now
watching your pained and tormented face
dismal and sad in your final moments
as your body pleades
your soul knows
the coldness and darkness ahead
pain and sorrow rip through you
as the cruelty of your life
replays infront of your eyes
the destruction you caused
being your impedeing doom
the angry eyes stare at you
casting there torment
into your very heart and soul
watching you writhe in pain
as all the agony flows
watching as your blood
is painted on the wall
with the bone chilling words
"redemption is mine"
written by the decieved.
"The Point of Strength"
as i fall into the consuming darkness
i see the radiant light you emit
never thought youd come for me
waiting to see if youd catch me
or let me fall deeper into the darkness
desperate i fought to hold onto you
i grew more determined
but i was weakening
i saw the hate in your words
the disgust in your truth
the sickening of my patheticness
a love you no longer gave
the darkness consumed and i was left bloody
destroyed i tore away at walls
letting them down
until the monster inside grew
he took control and his lust for blood and pain
consumed all rational senses
with no one to harm but myself
i found a means to satisfy the monster
my heart torn into pieces i was engulfed
the rage,
the misery,
the emptiness,
the pain,
the consumation.
the fire,
my heart was no more,
i was void of everything but pain
the monster satisfied
i was left with a shell afraid to be
who i was
with the main reason to feel gone
i had nothing
but inside my dimming fire of the soul
i held the memory of you
waiting for your soothing
the memory to be real again
to be captivated in your words
engulfed by your beauty i was a hollow void
i knew you were better off
but i was selfish this one time
wanting to be yours again
i got up in one last attempt
screaming out in agony
the rage banished the demons
i had one last shot at getting you back before i fell
the was no grace for a monster like me
i gave everything to have you back
i felt like i was losing you forever
until you lost your mind
you grabbed my hand and fixed everything
with the new found courage and reason
i rose up
slaughtering all traces of menacing memories
embracing your soul once again
feeling whole i thanked everything
but most of all i thanked you with all i could muster
the resurrection you gave me
though i was lost until you saved me
for a reason i know not
i wouldnt let myself die unless i gave my everything
to have you back ment the world
i felt the beating of your heart
it filled me and repaired me
whole once again
a silent prayer that you never leave me
like this again
"Vengeance"
your shining face
once the epitome of my existance
now the bane of my disgust
you were my light in the dark
the one true dependancy i had
you took everything i had from me
and threw it in my face
made a mockery of who i was
who i wanted to be
you told me pointless lies
that i foolishly believed
my humiliation your victory
what did i do to you?
the love you once had
was all part of your luring trap
the shine in my eyes gone
with your hands you broke
every part of my heart
and clouded my soul in misery
is this what you wanted?
my pain was a glory evident
in your desolate eyes
was i not good enough?
i tried my best
i gave everything i had
yet you tore me down
like i meant nothing
does this bring you satisfaction?
the satisfaction is evident in my eyes now
watching your pained and tormented face
dismal and sad in your final moments
as your body pleades
your soul knows
the coldness and darkness ahead
pain and sorrow rip through you
as the cruelty of your life
replays infront of your eyes
the destruction you caused
being your impedeing doom
the angry eyes stare at you
casting there torment
into your very heart and soul
watching you writhe in pain
as all the agony flows
watching as your blood
is painted on the wall
with the bone chilling words
"redemption is mine"
written by the decieved.
Poetry Part 9
Hey guys and ladies :)
"Shattered Heart"
it happened so sudden
one day you were there
the next your gone
i wonder what happened
if your okay
why youve left me
a broken mess
i dont know what id say to you
i guess id start
simply with
i miss you
id tell you as either a whisper
or an accusation
you left me
the consequences hurt
my barely surviving heart
takes a blow it cannot endure
the stitches fall apart
youve sown my demise
soul shattered
cold and alone
youve left me
why did you leave
what did i do wrong?
how did i hurt you
i promise ill do anything
just to have you back
to have your love
the warmth you give me
all a faded and jaded memory
the only warmth i have left
is the tears of sorrow
that drip down my face
faded memories haunt
my soul
words left unspoken
taunting regrets nagging
my love for you
never dying
just frozen cold waiting
for your warmth
heart waiting for you
to stitch back the pieces
only you can heal me
will you heal me?
if i could talk to you again
id tell you that i need you
without you life just isnt worth it
a broken dream
of the serenity of your words
the love you gave me
is my motivation
my final lament
as i beg for your return
i cry in agony
i love you, come back
"Society' Cruelty"
standing, rooted to the spot
the outside a frozen mask
the inside rages with thoughts
so excruciating the pain tears
hole after hole in the damaged soul
of the broken and defeated
how could anyone possibly let someone go willingly?
the thought of losing someone you cherished
someone who meant everything to you
is unfathomable
indescribable the silent torture began
the guilt and agony starts as the memory
replays itself as if on repeat
watching as the one you love falls
unable to do anything as the struggle
sorrow and dismay sear your throat
as the sobs stay trapped
again and again they try to stand
to get back up to survive
again and again beaten down by lifes woes
the brutality of society
unaccepting to those who believe different
fighting a lost cause
they lay still unable to move
not resisting as the fury
rains down on their bruised shell
wishing for a savior
a light erupts from all around
the stranger approaches
one not afraid to fight for others
even if he falls
he attacks and repels the onslaught
the number overwhelming the lone warrior
he falls in a bloodied heap next to the victim
together unable to move they look into each others eyes
the victim realising that the eyes they saw
were those of his savior
and even saviors fall
"The Deadness"
as i fall into the consuming darkness
i see the radiant light you emit
never thought youd come for me
waiting to see if youd catch me
or let me fall deeper into the darkness
desperate i fought to hold onto you
i grew more determined
but i was weakening
i saw the hate in your words
the disgust in your truth
the sickening of my patheticness
a love you no longer gave
the darkness consumed and i was left bloody
destroyed i tore away at walls
letting them down
until the monster inside grew
he took control and his lust for blood and pain
consumed all rational senses
with no one to harm but myself
i found a means to satisfy the monster
my heart torn into pieces i was engulfed
the rage,
the misery,
the emptiness,
the pain,
the consumation.
the fire,
my heart was no more,
i was void of everything but pain
the monster satisfied
i was left with a shell afraid to be
who i was
with the main reason to feel gone
i had nothing
but inside my dimming fire of the soul
i held the memory of you
waiting for your soothing
the memory to be real again
to be captivated in your words
engulfed by your beauty i was a hollow void
i knew you were better off
but i was selfish this one time
wanting to be yours again
i got up in one last attempt
screaming out in agony
the rage banished the demons
i had one last shot at getting you back before i fell
the was no grace for a monster like me
i gave everything to have you back
i felt like i was losing you forever
until you lost your mind
you grabbed my hand and fixed everything
with the new found courage and reason
i rose up
slaughtering all traces of menacing memories
embracing your soul once again
feeling whole i thanked everything
but most of all i thanked you with all i could muster
the resurrection you gave me
though i was lost until you saved me
for a reason i know not
i wouldnt let myself die unless i gave my everything
to have you back ment the world
i felt the beating of your heart
it filled me and repaired me
whole once again
a silent prayer that you never leave me
like this again
"Shattered Heart"
it happened so sudden
one day you were there
the next your gone
i wonder what happened
if your okay
why youve left me
a broken mess
i dont know what id say to you
i guess id start
simply with
i miss you
id tell you as either a whisper
or an accusation
you left me
the consequences hurt
my barely surviving heart
takes a blow it cannot endure
the stitches fall apart
youve sown my demise
soul shattered
cold and alone
youve left me
why did you leave
what did i do wrong?
how did i hurt you
i promise ill do anything
just to have you back
to have your love
the warmth you give me
all a faded and jaded memory
the only warmth i have left
is the tears of sorrow
that drip down my face
faded memories haunt
my soul
words left unspoken
taunting regrets nagging
my love for you
never dying
just frozen cold waiting
for your warmth
heart waiting for you
to stitch back the pieces
only you can heal me
will you heal me?
if i could talk to you again
id tell you that i need you
without you life just isnt worth it
a broken dream
of the serenity of your words
the love you gave me
is my motivation
my final lament
as i beg for your return
i cry in agony
i love you, come back
"Society' Cruelty"
standing, rooted to the spot
the outside a frozen mask
the inside rages with thoughts
so excruciating the pain tears
hole after hole in the damaged soul
of the broken and defeated
how could anyone possibly let someone go willingly?
the thought of losing someone you cherished
someone who meant everything to you
is unfathomable
indescribable the silent torture began
the guilt and agony starts as the memory
replays itself as if on repeat
watching as the one you love falls
unable to do anything as the struggle
sorrow and dismay sear your throat
as the sobs stay trapped
again and again they try to stand
to get back up to survive
again and again beaten down by lifes woes
the brutality of society
unaccepting to those who believe different
fighting a lost cause
they lay still unable to move
not resisting as the fury
rains down on their bruised shell
wishing for a savior
a light erupts from all around
the stranger approaches
one not afraid to fight for others
even if he falls
he attacks and repels the onslaught
the number overwhelming the lone warrior
he falls in a bloodied heap next to the victim
together unable to move they look into each others eyes
the victim realising that the eyes they saw
were those of his savior
and even saviors fall
"The Deadness"
as i fall into the consuming darkness
i see the radiant light you emit
never thought youd come for me
waiting to see if youd catch me
or let me fall deeper into the darkness
desperate i fought to hold onto you
i grew more determined
but i was weakening
i saw the hate in your words
the disgust in your truth
the sickening of my patheticness
a love you no longer gave
the darkness consumed and i was left bloody
destroyed i tore away at walls
letting them down
until the monster inside grew
he took control and his lust for blood and pain
consumed all rational senses
with no one to harm but myself
i found a means to satisfy the monster
my heart torn into pieces i was engulfed
the rage,
the misery,
the emptiness,
the pain,
the consumation.
the fire,
my heart was no more,
i was void of everything but pain
the monster satisfied
i was left with a shell afraid to be
who i was
with the main reason to feel gone
i had nothing
but inside my dimming fire of the soul
i held the memory of you
waiting for your soothing
the memory to be real again
to be captivated in your words
engulfed by your beauty i was a hollow void
i knew you were better off
but i was selfish this one time
wanting to be yours again
i got up in one last attempt
screaming out in agony
the rage banished the demons
i had one last shot at getting you back before i fell
the was no grace for a monster like me
i gave everything to have you back
i felt like i was losing you forever
until you lost your mind
you grabbed my hand and fixed everything
with the new found courage and reason
i rose up
slaughtering all traces of menacing memories
embracing your soul once again
feeling whole i thanked everything
but most of all i thanked you with all i could muster
the resurrection you gave me
though i was lost until you saved me
for a reason i know not
i wouldnt let myself die unless i gave my everything
to have you back ment the world
i felt the beating of your heart
it filled me and repaired me
whole once again
a silent prayer that you never leave me
like this again
Poetry Part 8
Almost finished your Patience is astounding. This one is several poems in one so this will make up one post, sorry for the inconvienience.
"Several Poems"
another beautiful rose
wilted once again
by the tragedy
that fate had instore
for those 2 star crossed lovers
never destined
to have their lives entwined
the silent rose
wilting in its silent dispair
never again to see
that beautiful sunshine
i saw her face
and everything changed
i thought id never see
anyone as beautiful
it was like the silent symphony
with a melody so sweet
it makes your heart stop
if ever the angels took the time
to stop and look at her
they would burn and perish
with the darkest of jealousy
darkest and silent torture
the doomed fantasy
of feelings so wrong
oh fortune's fool
why do you despise me so hatedly?
surely my sorrow
satisfies your thirst for my demise
Why do you make me feel so alone?
sometimes you make me
want to make that jump
into remissful oblivion
maybe hell wont shut me out
it seems your walls have no refugee for me
oh woeful damnation
of spited enmity
slay thyself and end this suffering
deepest rage and supressed jealousy
ever present when my eyes see
her that beautiful girl
with him that using bastard
shes ignorant to the truth
or maybe she doesnt care
the seemingly endless depression
o a beauty so rare
never ceases to cause sadness
in those that care
the helplessness to help
or the pain to watch
but please know
im gunna be there to catch you when you fall
ill be the one you can go to
to protect you when your fears attack you
im a friend you can trust
even though i love you
im old and mature enough to not let it interfere
"Several Poems"
another beautiful rose
wilted once again
by the tragedy
that fate had instore
for those 2 star crossed lovers
never destined
to have their lives entwined
the silent rose
wilting in its silent dispair
never again to see
that beautiful sunshine
i saw her face
and everything changed
i thought id never see
anyone as beautiful
it was like the silent symphony
with a melody so sweet
it makes your heart stop
if ever the angels took the time
to stop and look at her
they would burn and perish
with the darkest of jealousy
darkest and silent torture
the doomed fantasy
of feelings so wrong
oh fortune's fool
why do you despise me so hatedly?
surely my sorrow
satisfies your thirst for my demise
Why do you make me feel so alone?
sometimes you make me
want to make that jump
into remissful oblivion
maybe hell wont shut me out
it seems your walls have no refugee for me
oh woeful damnation
of spited enmity
slay thyself and end this suffering
deepest rage and supressed jealousy
ever present when my eyes see
her that beautiful girl
with him that using bastard
shes ignorant to the truth
or maybe she doesnt care
the seemingly endless depression
o a beauty so rare
never ceases to cause sadness
in those that care
the helplessness to help
or the pain to watch
but please know
im gunna be there to catch you when you fall
ill be the one you can go to
to protect you when your fears attack you
im a friend you can trust
even though i love you
im old and mature enough to not let it interfere
Poetry Part 7
Hold tight Readers, your patience is much appreciated. :) Thank you all
"Lost in the Darkness"
what happened?
we were great friends
at least you were one of my best
my feelings grew i couldnt control them
i told you and you were fine
but something changed along the line
and i ran out of time
you went cold and im starting to thin
i fucked up again
its always like this
i ask wats wrong and you always hide behind those 2 words
"im sorry"
at the start i believed you
but now im not so sure
your hiding and i want to know wat i did
so maybe i can fix it
i want things to be the way they used to be
i love you
yet im dying inside
its like im a nuisance to you that you cant get rid of
youve gone cold
im not even sure you care for me
once i thought you did
i cared for you and i was there and i still care
even tho shits hard im not going to abandon you
ill always love you even tho its like you hate me
i need answers as to what i did
its killing me
im lost in the darkness and i have no light
no one can reach me im forever alone
yet i need you
your the only one that can save me
please im begging you just tell me the truth?
what did i do?
"Pain"
before my eyes i see a haze
i realise its the tears that are welling up
my mind freezes
the thing i fear most seems to have happened
shes slipped through my fingers
lost never to be found again
i find my heart slowly ripping into little pieces
this time it cant be fixed
lost in my own misery
the darkness enveloping, surrounding me
i feel a helpless desire
a desperate bid for happiness, a sign all is not lost
im lost without a way to be free
is there any hope left for me?
or is it already too late?
"Poetic Justice"
i thought things were the same.
in truth everything had changed.
for the worst or the better i guess no one will know.
all i no is when im around her the world is right
when im around her time seems to stop
everything is right
however it makes leaving harder on my soul
to see the anguish in our eyes as they depart
i know on the inside that this is all a dream
for why would a girl so beautiful and perfect limit herself
for the dull old boring shell in which my tortured soul binds itself to?
the lies i despise so hatefully are becoming my best friend
the worst i get the more i hide behind them
does that make me evil?
does that turn me into a hypocrite?
am i just a lost cause?
should i even bother with this anymore?
what i thought i could handle i could not.
it brings me down and tears me apart.
its everything slipping away
Do i fight for what can never be mine or do i give up on her to?
dreams are fine but shes everything i dreamed about
im losing control and i dont know the right way to go
i need guidance, i need reasurrance
i need to fight my own fears and accept the truth
my lifes one big pile of shit and im lost
i dont know if i can survive for much longer
im tired of the ache
im sick to fucking death of all my hopes and dreams slipping through my fingers
i guess thats what hopes are for being crushed and ripped to shreds
i may be taking a pessismistic view of this but the words are the ones from my soul.
this is the lament from my heart and soul
my final good bye to the dreams and hopes i once held dear
for now they are no longer within my control
"Lost in the Darkness"
what happened?
we were great friends
at least you were one of my best
my feelings grew i couldnt control them
i told you and you were fine
but something changed along the line
and i ran out of time
you went cold and im starting to thin
i fucked up again
its always like this
i ask wats wrong and you always hide behind those 2 words
"im sorry"
at the start i believed you
but now im not so sure
your hiding and i want to know wat i did
so maybe i can fix it
i want things to be the way they used to be
i love you
yet im dying inside
its like im a nuisance to you that you cant get rid of
youve gone cold
im not even sure you care for me
once i thought you did
i cared for you and i was there and i still care
even tho shits hard im not going to abandon you
ill always love you even tho its like you hate me
i need answers as to what i did
its killing me
im lost in the darkness and i have no light
no one can reach me im forever alone
yet i need you
your the only one that can save me
please im begging you just tell me the truth?
what did i do?
"Pain"
before my eyes i see a haze
i realise its the tears that are welling up
my mind freezes
the thing i fear most seems to have happened
shes slipped through my fingers
lost never to be found again
i find my heart slowly ripping into little pieces
this time it cant be fixed
lost in my own misery
the darkness enveloping, surrounding me
i feel a helpless desire
a desperate bid for happiness, a sign all is not lost
im lost without a way to be free
is there any hope left for me?
or is it already too late?
"Poetic Justice"
i thought things were the same.
in truth everything had changed.
for the worst or the better i guess no one will know.
all i no is when im around her the world is right
when im around her time seems to stop
everything is right
however it makes leaving harder on my soul
to see the anguish in our eyes as they depart
i know on the inside that this is all a dream
for why would a girl so beautiful and perfect limit herself
for the dull old boring shell in which my tortured soul binds itself to?
the lies i despise so hatefully are becoming my best friend
the worst i get the more i hide behind them
does that make me evil?
does that turn me into a hypocrite?
am i just a lost cause?
should i even bother with this anymore?
what i thought i could handle i could not.
it brings me down and tears me apart.
its everything slipping away
Do i fight for what can never be mine or do i give up on her to?
dreams are fine but shes everything i dreamed about
im losing control and i dont know the right way to go
i need guidance, i need reasurrance
i need to fight my own fears and accept the truth
my lifes one big pile of shit and im lost
i dont know if i can survive for much longer
im tired of the ache
im sick to fucking death of all my hopes and dreams slipping through my fingers
i guess thats what hopes are for being crushed and ripped to shreds
i may be taking a pessismistic view of this but the words are the ones from my soul.
this is the lament from my heart and soul
my final good bye to the dreams and hopes i once held dear
for now they are no longer within my control
Poetry Part 6
only another 5 or 6 to go :D so hold on tight readers
"F@#$%^"
it feels like lifes over already
left with scars
there to remind me
of all the failures that have occured
the emptyness is my best friend
a million miles away i see a hopeful dream
pity itd never happen in a million years
not even if i had some remnant of luck
life is out there to get me and people say life is wat you make of it
but what can i make of the blackness
its all that is left
i struggle to breathe let alone seek a stray light
what the fuck is wrong with me?
i need some guidance yet all is lost
ruined what i never had
the void never to be consumed by my emotions
all thats left is the bitter resentment of the tragedy
wanna lash out, i wanna strike feel the power
the blood the pain, its worth the release isnt it?
suffering in silence is better than around those who care
it requires less pain they feel
and less useless worrying
fuck this tired life? i dont think it gets better
why the fuck do i do this?
i cant save myself
gotta try n pick myself up but its like my arms weigh the world
i lay here paralysed and motionless people pass by without a care
so contempt in their own little world
i wollow in the depression and the violent catastrophe of emotions in my head
my heads one huge fucked up mess i cant make the slightest piece of
unable to look, unable to love, unable to notice me, she walks away
sometimes shes on my mind, i cant seem to hate her and when im not sure
of my feelings anymore i just seem to fall in love with her again a never ending
cycle of pain and depression, shes so much better off i get how it is
im a fucked up mess and im alone
i need an embrace yet no one is there with open arms
i soul trapt and wounded
bleeding chained to a hope thats drifting
i cant seem to say goodbye
lost and confused
"Kisses Contract"
a mutual contract
signed by the entwined flesh
of two blushing pilgrims
the contract of love
not one to be taken lightly,
the consummation of the desire
and the heat of the sharing warmth
speak of a bond that is the swapping
of two hearts
a piece is taken not to be given back
the silent prayer of a blessing connection
not a betrayed and abused heart
the compassionate gift of thy willing lips
gives consent to be thou's
the vow hoping to be recieved in the movement
of thou other parties lips.
the fire that burns within thy soul
raging higher and higher with each kiss
the piercing eyes willing to see through the bad
to the light and the good which wins the heart over.
the contract of the kiss.
forever a mutual and silent ritual of the heart.
"Last Wishes"
Last wishes
the final thoughts
before the darkness wins
it makes you wonder
who will really care
and who the pretenders were
Last wishes
regrets running through the mind
the steady stream of tears
the grievances' only condolence
desperate plea to go back in time
and change all the wrongs
Last wishes
a final hope
for things to be all
just one horrible dream
a twisted conjuration of the mind
playing on fears
Last wishes
wanting to hold
the hand of thy hearts protector
to feel the warm tenderness
of pure love
Last wishes
vision blurring
the darkness growing
faces slip away
pain fades
a cold numbness
the fearless nothing
purges the deepest recesses
casting into the dismal eternity
that is a means to an end.
"F@#$%^"
it feels like lifes over already
left with scars
there to remind me
of all the failures that have occured
the emptyness is my best friend
a million miles away i see a hopeful dream
pity itd never happen in a million years
not even if i had some remnant of luck
life is out there to get me and people say life is wat you make of it
but what can i make of the blackness
its all that is left
i struggle to breathe let alone seek a stray light
what the fuck is wrong with me?
i need some guidance yet all is lost
ruined what i never had
the void never to be consumed by my emotions
all thats left is the bitter resentment of the tragedy
wanna lash out, i wanna strike feel the power
the blood the pain, its worth the release isnt it?
suffering in silence is better than around those who care
it requires less pain they feel
and less useless worrying
fuck this tired life? i dont think it gets better
why the fuck do i do this?
i cant save myself
gotta try n pick myself up but its like my arms weigh the world
i lay here paralysed and motionless people pass by without a care
so contempt in their own little world
i wollow in the depression and the violent catastrophe of emotions in my head
my heads one huge fucked up mess i cant make the slightest piece of
unable to look, unable to love, unable to notice me, she walks away
sometimes shes on my mind, i cant seem to hate her and when im not sure
of my feelings anymore i just seem to fall in love with her again a never ending
cycle of pain and depression, shes so much better off i get how it is
im a fucked up mess and im alone
i need an embrace yet no one is there with open arms
i soul trapt and wounded
bleeding chained to a hope thats drifting
i cant seem to say goodbye
lost and confused
"Kisses Contract"
a mutual contract
signed by the entwined flesh
of two blushing pilgrims
the contract of love
not one to be taken lightly,
the consummation of the desire
and the heat of the sharing warmth
speak of a bond that is the swapping
of two hearts
a piece is taken not to be given back
the silent prayer of a blessing connection
not a betrayed and abused heart
the compassionate gift of thy willing lips
gives consent to be thou's
the vow hoping to be recieved in the movement
of thou other parties lips.
the fire that burns within thy soul
raging higher and higher with each kiss
the piercing eyes willing to see through the bad
to the light and the good which wins the heart over.
the contract of the kiss.
forever a mutual and silent ritual of the heart.
"Last Wishes"
Last wishes
the final thoughts
before the darkness wins
it makes you wonder
who will really care
and who the pretenders were
Last wishes
regrets running through the mind
the steady stream of tears
the grievances' only condolence
desperate plea to go back in time
and change all the wrongs
Last wishes
a final hope
for things to be all
just one horrible dream
a twisted conjuration of the mind
playing on fears
Last wishes
wanting to hold
the hand of thy hearts protector
to feel the warm tenderness
of pure love
Last wishes
vision blurring
the darkness growing
faces slip away
pain fades
a cold numbness
the fearless nothing
purges the deepest recesses
casting into the dismal eternity
that is a means to an end.
Poetry Part 5
And again readers, this is some pretty bad stuff so you dont have to read it but if for some reason you like this stuff keep reading :)
"Eternity" (Personal Fav)
as the sun starts its slow decent
a lone figure stares out
at the gentle waves that ease their way in
his silent agony haunting his taut features
soaking in the rhythm of the harmony
as the crash and falls of the water
bring about his sorrow in drowning pools
of tempest misery
stitching the shattered fragments of his heart
back together seems a lost hope
his soul searches for remnants of what was
the irony of how
nothing can turn into everything
and that same everything can turn into nothingness
the dark and dismal denial of reality
casts an eerie shadow of reminder
looking up
he sees a sight to behold
the horizon flashes green
as an arrow rises to the clouds above
closing his eyes he feels a touch
the tears start to roll down his face
as he fought to control his shudder
her touch like fire she placed
her hand over his heart she embraces him
dispelling his pain and sorrow
she picked up his pieces
put the puzzle pieces back and at last
faced him in all her beauty
the embrace of her dying lips on his
together in perfect harmony as they both fell
into eternal grace
"together to the end"
they whispered to each other
as everything dimmed
"Experiences"
when do we know when to give up?
there is no definite answer
it always changes
the situation is what plays
a crucial role in that decision
when it comes to a fight between love
as much as we know we have to
can we ever
just give up?
the prospect of giving up what your heart
truly and desperately desires
is a terrible burden to bear
and being gracious in defeat
is never easy especially when
you have to let go of the thing that matters most
you always ask yourself
could i of given a little more?
what could i of done?
why do i always lose?
what makes them better then me?
the answers sometimes told often are not
they eat away like a plague
of dismal nightmares
forever casting a dark and looming shadow
can we ever pick ourselves up?
or do we just lay down and die
getting up and fighting
is what everyone tells us to do
but it is never that easy
to get up and fight
when everything pushes you down
requires a both indignant stupor
or a fierce and iron determination
do any of us have those qualities?
only our souls will tell us this answer
"Falling"
the dying embers fall
as the full moon rises
to take the place of the decieving sun
the billowing wind
accumulating force
surrounding and consuming
a man, he stands
alone and bitter
facing the glistening water far below
his agony held silent within
spreading through his blood
siezing, and controlling
he has lost the fight
into the night
he flings his arms open
and with a bone chilling shout
screams for all of his sins
tears rain down his face
the memory vivid in his mind
her blood, her face, her eyes
cold and scared
her scarred and abused body
pain and torment his only friends now
the blood over his body as he recalls
his revenge, killing the murderer
his only thought
"vengeance is justice and justice will be mine"
with nothing left but agony
he falls to his knees
knowing what he must do to rejoin his beloved
he stands on the edge
the nothingness surrounds
waiting
he falls with a silent grace
a final redemption
"Eternity" (Personal Fav)
as the sun starts its slow decent
a lone figure stares out
at the gentle waves that ease their way in
his silent agony haunting his taut features
soaking in the rhythm of the harmony
as the crash and falls of the water
bring about his sorrow in drowning pools
of tempest misery
stitching the shattered fragments of his heart
back together seems a lost hope
his soul searches for remnants of what was
the irony of how
nothing can turn into everything
and that same everything can turn into nothingness
the dark and dismal denial of reality
casts an eerie shadow of reminder
looking up
he sees a sight to behold
the horizon flashes green
as an arrow rises to the clouds above
closing his eyes he feels a touch
the tears start to roll down his face
as he fought to control his shudder
her touch like fire she placed
her hand over his heart she embraces him
dispelling his pain and sorrow
she picked up his pieces
put the puzzle pieces back and at last
faced him in all her beauty
the embrace of her dying lips on his
together in perfect harmony as they both fell
into eternal grace
"together to the end"
they whispered to each other
as everything dimmed
"Experiences"
when do we know when to give up?
there is no definite answer
it always changes
the situation is what plays
a crucial role in that decision
when it comes to a fight between love
as much as we know we have to
can we ever
just give up?
the prospect of giving up what your heart
truly and desperately desires
is a terrible burden to bear
and being gracious in defeat
is never easy especially when
you have to let go of the thing that matters most
you always ask yourself
could i of given a little more?
what could i of done?
why do i always lose?
what makes them better then me?
the answers sometimes told often are not
they eat away like a plague
of dismal nightmares
forever casting a dark and looming shadow
can we ever pick ourselves up?
or do we just lay down and die
getting up and fighting
is what everyone tells us to do
but it is never that easy
to get up and fight
when everything pushes you down
requires a both indignant stupor
or a fierce and iron determination
do any of us have those qualities?
only our souls will tell us this answer
"Falling"
the dying embers fall
as the full moon rises
to take the place of the decieving sun
the billowing wind
accumulating force
surrounding and consuming
a man, he stands
alone and bitter
facing the glistening water far below
his agony held silent within
spreading through his blood
siezing, and controlling
he has lost the fight
into the night
he flings his arms open
and with a bone chilling shout
screams for all of his sins
tears rain down his face
the memory vivid in his mind
her blood, her face, her eyes
cold and scared
her scarred and abused body
pain and torment his only friends now
the blood over his body as he recalls
his revenge, killing the murderer
his only thought
"vengeance is justice and justice will be mine"
with nothing left but agony
he falls to his knees
knowing what he must do to rejoin his beloved
he stands on the edge
the nothingness surrounds
waiting
he falls with a silent grace
a final redemption
Poetry Part 4
Hey readers, sorry again for this but i must continue or id be in trouble and im sorry for having to put you through reading them, they are pretty terrible, but im sure your tough people.
"Dark Lament"
the dark clouds hang
billowing its harsh cold wind
unrelenting it attacks
defenseless against the barrage
of a denied dream
tormented by neglagence
chained by pedastals
imprisoned under natures wrath
screaming with woeful serenity
the bitter memory sears
as the tears flow
dark the crimson river slowly ebbs
down his arms and feet
struggling against restraints
that are both physical
and illusion
heart shattered by a distraught grief
beautiful eyes pierced his soul
captivating words ensnare his love
silent weeping as a soul dies
in a bone chilling whisper
he sings his final lament
"Deaths Bloom"
a valiant desire
created from a dream
misery and heartache
haunt the wounded soul
the dark intentions
caused by raw emotion
bloodshed the cause for vengeance
satisfying a broken heart
heavy with woe
eyes tortured with the sight
of her with someone else
the jealousy breaks his heart
shredding the last dismal hope
of a light in the dark
seeking physical harm
to ease his insides
the tears fall
with a silent grace they crash
the steady dripping of
the crimson river flows
inducing a blissful agony
pain taking his mind off heartbreak
blackness surrounds as
an eternity awaits
no more suffering
no more pain
only peaceful nothingness
a means to an end
"Demon Strike"
watching your blood flow
like a plume of crimson roses
passes off both a wave of grief
and a dark satisfaction
having caused that victory
sends the soul into
a descending spiral of
despair
woe
hatred
destruction
these lead to the consumation
of a doomed and tainted life
can anyone fight back against this?
in the end even the good have weaknesses
the desires of our anger defeat us all
our downfalls being our own egotistical fears
the fight for domination and survival
destroy all sense of preservation
we all become blind at one point
it is in this pitch black
that decides what we can make of ourselves
do we follow instincts or deny them?
has anyone thought that instincts
are the repulsive voices of our own
inner demons
the ones waiting to strike
causing our own destruction
is a far greater defeat than
even the strongest warrior can withstand
everyones walls crumple
its just the duration that we can hold out against
when our defenses fall and we are vulnerable
what are we being subject to?
can we fight what comes at us
or will we succumb to the ferocity
they strike endlessly
taking away what dignity and pride we have
stripping us from our very souls
leaving nothing but an empty shell
sending us plunging into the darkness
alone, cold
forever tormented by the chains of misery
freedom a lost prospect upon the horizon
just over the dark edge of light
just out of reach of our grasping hands
again a humiliating torment our eyes cast upon us all.
"Dark Lament"
the dark clouds hang
billowing its harsh cold wind
unrelenting it attacks
defenseless against the barrage
of a denied dream
tormented by neglagence
chained by pedastals
imprisoned under natures wrath
screaming with woeful serenity
the bitter memory sears
as the tears flow
dark the crimson river slowly ebbs
down his arms and feet
struggling against restraints
that are both physical
and illusion
heart shattered by a distraught grief
beautiful eyes pierced his soul
captivating words ensnare his love
silent weeping as a soul dies
in a bone chilling whisper
he sings his final lament
"Deaths Bloom"
a valiant desire
created from a dream
misery and heartache
haunt the wounded soul
the dark intentions
caused by raw emotion
bloodshed the cause for vengeance
satisfying a broken heart
heavy with woe
eyes tortured with the sight
of her with someone else
the jealousy breaks his heart
shredding the last dismal hope
of a light in the dark
seeking physical harm
to ease his insides
the tears fall
with a silent grace they crash
the steady dripping of
the crimson river flows
inducing a blissful agony
pain taking his mind off heartbreak
blackness surrounds as
an eternity awaits
no more suffering
no more pain
only peaceful nothingness
a means to an end
"Demon Strike"
watching your blood flow
like a plume of crimson roses
passes off both a wave of grief
and a dark satisfaction
having caused that victory
sends the soul into
a descending spiral of
despair
woe
hatred
destruction
these lead to the consumation
of a doomed and tainted life
can anyone fight back against this?
in the end even the good have weaknesses
the desires of our anger defeat us all
our downfalls being our own egotistical fears
the fight for domination and survival
destroy all sense of preservation
we all become blind at one point
it is in this pitch black
that decides what we can make of ourselves
do we follow instincts or deny them?
has anyone thought that instincts
are the repulsive voices of our own
inner demons
the ones waiting to strike
causing our own destruction
is a far greater defeat than
even the strongest warrior can withstand
everyones walls crumple
its just the duration that we can hold out against
when our defenses fall and we are vulnerable
what are we being subject to?
can we fight what comes at us
or will we succumb to the ferocity
they strike endlessly
taking away what dignity and pride we have
stripping us from our very souls
leaving nothing but an empty shell
sending us plunging into the darkness
alone, cold
forever tormented by the chains of misery
freedom a lost prospect upon the horizon
just over the dark edge of light
just out of reach of our grasping hands
again a humiliating torment our eyes cast upon us all.
Poetry Part 3
Sorry for the spamming of all these poems, but i have alot and i decided to advertise them as was suggested by several people, so down to part 3, enjoy and thanks.
"An Unforgettable Pain"
something that made me feel alive
that thing was that i was your everything
how is that possible?
you now tell me that hes your everything
how can i feel?
i dont let it show how much it hurts
i pretend like i never fit those pieces together
fuck i know things are hard for you
i feel your pain too
to me you are everything
the way i get through the hard days
i know you probably dont even care
about how i really feel
hurting you kills me and i dont know
how i can do this anymore
its like everything i say n do
it tears you away from me cm after cm
your wings are no longer there for me to be caught
feeling helpless and your silently screaming in agony
hiding from everyone knowing they wouldnt understand
how can i tell you that im there forever and always
telling you something you already know gets tiring
but the truth is i do understand i do want to help
i dont want to lose you and yet you tell me im not
then why does it feel like it?
why does it feel like my heart is being clamped
some vial submission to the despair haunting you
the resemblance to your kinsmen is striking
you are not like them
uniqueness is something every individual has
forgetting that is forgetting yourself
never forget yourself because that is your freedom
no one can take that away from you
i try i really do but its hard when my help isnt wanted
what else can i do?
i cant sit around and do nothing i need to do my best
to get that lovable and adorable smile back on your face
need you to be yourself again be happy and enjoy life
without that i cant find the strength
its selfish but your not the only one feeling down
i know ive said this alot and your tired of it
but i love you and ill always stick by you
no matter how hard it gets well be true to ourselves and each other
ill give you all i can to pull you through
give you my strength to carry you on
im sorry but i cant let you go
"Broken Heart"
your on my mind
you act like i dont exist
never good enough for you
not worthy of your time
wondering what you are doing
how you are
your so beautiful
but i try to gain the courage
to talk to you
i have no idea of what to say
the way the light shines off your face
light of hope in your eyes
watching from a distance
i picture me kissing you in my mind
holding your hand
your sweet embrace
my arms are open wide
i long to hear you tell me
i love you
but i will never hear those words
sometimes i can feel the love
like its about to overflow
but at the back of my soul i feel
the deep sadness of my heart
as i watch you walk away
again and again
you will never know how much i care
id do anything for you
but you act like im disgusting
your all i ever wanted
and no matter how much i try
i cant hate you
you own my heart
under lock and key
its yours but time and time again
you neglect it
slowly letting it die
"Concave of My Control"
i thought i was in control
trying over and over to keep it
it was going so well
till you said those words
it ripped my heart out and played around with it using a knife
a bleeding wound i now have
a wound unable to heal
a tormenting thought that followed
my soul writhing in the pain
body turned hot, a cold sweat broke out
fighting to blink back tears
feeling dead and empty
a smile a distant memory in my past
the horrible nightmares that are going to come
more depression im going to have to live with
i shouldnt be surprised
i always knew id never be hers
they say hell is like this
i guess im in my own personal living nightmare
my own design of hell
how long am i going to have to wait this time to escape?
god i hope i survive this
already the darkness is hear
my demons laughing at me, fighting over who gets to torture me first
little do they no my hearts beaten them to it.
how long do i wait this time?
i just want a chance
some good luck in this fucked up life
a sign everything isnt bad
love is something i want but its something i hate
and i guess my heart loves you
your a fallen angel
always out of reach to my fingers
ill always want to be with you
but all wanting is the only thing i get
the love i need to feel
i just want you to be the one to love me
"An Unforgettable Pain"
something that made me feel alive
that thing was that i was your everything
how is that possible?
you now tell me that hes your everything
how can i feel?
i dont let it show how much it hurts
i pretend like i never fit those pieces together
fuck i know things are hard for you
i feel your pain too
to me you are everything
the way i get through the hard days
i know you probably dont even care
about how i really feel
hurting you kills me and i dont know
how i can do this anymore
its like everything i say n do
it tears you away from me cm after cm
your wings are no longer there for me to be caught
feeling helpless and your silently screaming in agony
hiding from everyone knowing they wouldnt understand
how can i tell you that im there forever and always
telling you something you already know gets tiring
but the truth is i do understand i do want to help
i dont want to lose you and yet you tell me im not
then why does it feel like it?
why does it feel like my heart is being clamped
some vial submission to the despair haunting you
the resemblance to your kinsmen is striking
you are not like them
uniqueness is something every individual has
forgetting that is forgetting yourself
never forget yourself because that is your freedom
no one can take that away from you
i try i really do but its hard when my help isnt wanted
what else can i do?
i cant sit around and do nothing i need to do my best
to get that lovable and adorable smile back on your face
need you to be yourself again be happy and enjoy life
without that i cant find the strength
its selfish but your not the only one feeling down
i know ive said this alot and your tired of it
but i love you and ill always stick by you
no matter how hard it gets well be true to ourselves and each other
ill give you all i can to pull you through
give you my strength to carry you on
im sorry but i cant let you go
"Broken Heart"
your on my mind
you act like i dont exist
never good enough for you
not worthy of your time
wondering what you are doing
how you are
your so beautiful
but i try to gain the courage
to talk to you
i have no idea of what to say
the way the light shines off your face
light of hope in your eyes
watching from a distance
i picture me kissing you in my mind
holding your hand
your sweet embrace
my arms are open wide
i long to hear you tell me
i love you
but i will never hear those words
sometimes i can feel the love
like its about to overflow
but at the back of my soul i feel
the deep sadness of my heart
as i watch you walk away
again and again
you will never know how much i care
id do anything for you
but you act like im disgusting
your all i ever wanted
and no matter how much i try
i cant hate you
you own my heart
under lock and key
its yours but time and time again
you neglect it
slowly letting it die
"Concave of My Control"
i thought i was in control
trying over and over to keep it
it was going so well
till you said those words
it ripped my heart out and played around with it using a knife
a bleeding wound i now have
a wound unable to heal
a tormenting thought that followed
my soul writhing in the pain
body turned hot, a cold sweat broke out
fighting to blink back tears
feeling dead and empty
a smile a distant memory in my past
the horrible nightmares that are going to come
more depression im going to have to live with
i shouldnt be surprised
i always knew id never be hers
they say hell is like this
i guess im in my own personal living nightmare
my own design of hell
how long am i going to have to wait this time to escape?
god i hope i survive this
already the darkness is hear
my demons laughing at me, fighting over who gets to torture me first
little do they no my hearts beaten them to it.
how long do i wait this time?
i just want a chance
some good luck in this fucked up life
a sign everything isnt bad
love is something i want but its something i hate
and i guess my heart loves you
your a fallen angel
always out of reach to my fingers
ill always want to be with you
but all wanting is the only thing i get
the love i need to feel
i just want you to be the one to love me
Poems part 2
Blog readers, ive decided that three poems per page will be how it is set out, not too long as to bore you, but not to short as to make you read them all with excessive clicking and finding where you are up to, im hoping there will be 15 or so parts so hold tight and take care :) Now for the poems. i think ill do it alphabetically so stay patient, they will vary alot.
"A Reason"
walking along the lines of misery
there is a young woman
fighting for a freedom she deserves
trapped and consumed by her loneliness
unable to find a helpful solution
words of the ones who love her fall deaf
onto her beautiful and heartbroken soul
a love she does not feel
from the ones who should give it most
as a foolish boy tries to save her
he is a wounded soldier that finds peace and happiness
when he is around her
little does she know, she is his savior
her troubles weigh heavy on his shoulders
as he feels her pain as she struggles
and he cries in agony over her pain
again and again he tries but feels he is to little avail
trying desperately to find a solution
he falls to his knees
his love for her cannot be spoken because words
do not give justice to the feelings of true emotion
her life, a point in which he finds a reason
to continue fighting this hell
she is the light in his darkness
the bandage on his wounds
laughter bounds from his lips when he is with her
no matter what the pain she heals it
she is a true angel
envied by others and even hated by some
her soul tainted by misery
intensifies her radiate glow
her beauty unmatched
her soul able to find the good in the worst people
her heart, broken and battered
yet filled with more love then the world combined
basked in all her glory
he is at peace
a soul and heart he will never forget
and would gladly walk hand in hand
to the end of days
"A Silent Grace"
walking along the lines of misery
there is a young woman
fighting for a freedom she deserves
trapped and consumed by her loneliness
unable to find a helpful solution
words of the ones who love her fall deaf
onto her beautiful and heartbroken soul
a love she does not feel
from the ones who should give it most
as a foolish boy tries to save her
he is a wounded soldier that finds peace and happiness
when he is around her
little does she know, she is his savior
her troubles weigh heavy on his shoulders
as he feels her pain as she struggles
and he cries in agony over her pain
again and again he tries but feels he is to little avail
trying desperately to find a solution
he falls to his knees
his love for her cannot be spoken because words
do not give justice to the feelings of true emotion
her life, a point in which he finds a reason
to continue fighting this hell
she is the light in his darkness
the bandage on his wounds
laughter bounds from his lips when he is with her
no matter what the pain she heals it
she is a true angel
envied by others and even hated by some
her soul tainted by misery
intensifies her radiate glow
her beauty unmatched
her soul able to find the good in the worst people
her heart, broken and battered
yet filled with more love then the world combined
basked in all her glory
he is at peace
a soul and heart he will never forget
and would gladly walk hand in hand
to the end of days
"A Sinner's Desire"
the intensity of a foreign passion
consuming all other senses in the urge of lust
blushing pilgrims await gentle reassurance
as an ache begins deep within
the heart races
the flames of passion rage
waiting to be satisfied
your smile
your beautiful face
all i see as all else is clouded
the desire to feel your body
the exploration of soft hands
silently screaming pleasure at the touch
the urge builds and the lust consumes
this sin be purged or over the edge we go
falling into the deadly game of love
will any of us survive?
"A Reason"
walking along the lines of misery
there is a young woman
fighting for a freedom she deserves
trapped and consumed by her loneliness
unable to find a helpful solution
words of the ones who love her fall deaf
onto her beautiful and heartbroken soul
a love she does not feel
from the ones who should give it most
as a foolish boy tries to save her
he is a wounded soldier that finds peace and happiness
when he is around her
little does she know, she is his savior
her troubles weigh heavy on his shoulders
as he feels her pain as she struggles
and he cries in agony over her pain
again and again he tries but feels he is to little avail
trying desperately to find a solution
he falls to his knees
his love for her cannot be spoken because words
do not give justice to the feelings of true emotion
her life, a point in which he finds a reason
to continue fighting this hell
she is the light in his darkness
the bandage on his wounds
laughter bounds from his lips when he is with her
no matter what the pain she heals it
she is a true angel
envied by others and even hated by some
her soul tainted by misery
intensifies her radiate glow
her beauty unmatched
her soul able to find the good in the worst people
her heart, broken and battered
yet filled with more love then the world combined
basked in all her glory
he is at peace
a soul and heart he will never forget
and would gladly walk hand in hand
to the end of days
"A Silent Grace"
walking along the lines of misery
there is a young woman
fighting for a freedom she deserves
trapped and consumed by her loneliness
unable to find a helpful solution
words of the ones who love her fall deaf
onto her beautiful and heartbroken soul
a love she does not feel
from the ones who should give it most
as a foolish boy tries to save her
he is a wounded soldier that finds peace and happiness
when he is around her
little does she know, she is his savior
her troubles weigh heavy on his shoulders
as he feels her pain as she struggles
and he cries in agony over her pain
again and again he tries but feels he is to little avail
trying desperately to find a solution
he falls to his knees
his love for her cannot be spoken because words
do not give justice to the feelings of true emotion
her life, a point in which he finds a reason
to continue fighting this hell
she is the light in his darkness
the bandage on his wounds
laughter bounds from his lips when he is with her
no matter what the pain she heals it
she is a true angel
envied by others and even hated by some
her soul tainted by misery
intensifies her radiate glow
her beauty unmatched
her soul able to find the good in the worst people
her heart, broken and battered
yet filled with more love then the world combined
basked in all her glory
he is at peace
a soul and heart he will never forget
and would gladly walk hand in hand
to the end of days
"A Sinner's Desire"
the intensity of a foreign passion
consuming all other senses in the urge of lust
blushing pilgrims await gentle reassurance
as an ache begins deep within
the heart races
the flames of passion rage
waiting to be satisfied
your smile
your beautiful face
all i see as all else is clouded
the desire to feel your body
the exploration of soft hands
silently screaming pleasure at the touch
the urge builds and the lust consumes
this sin be purged or over the edge we go
falling into the deadly game of love
will any of us survive?
War Poems
well audience, as i said im starting to publish my pretty bad poetry so ill start with the three poems that got me started into writing poetry. The theme is war based and it is to try and capture the perspectives of the soldiers and my feelings towards war. hope you enjoy. just scroll down to read.
Poems of a soldier
"Tale of a Soldier"
a man changes his life by the decisions he makes
many young men’s lives were changed with the war
these young naive souls thought they could all be heroes
they get sent to the battle with high spirits
together the men beside him are all his brothers in arms
together they all strive for the same thing
bonded together for the safety of the mother land
at the start they think its all fun and games
until the first man dies
he stands still as his mate and brother in arms besides him is shot dead
the blood splattering as the bullet hits him between the eyes
he freezes up in panic covered in the blood of his comrade
for the first time in this young mans life he feels true fear
he starts to think of home
his family, his love, oh his sweet love
never to see them again
he charges swearing to avenge his fallen comrade
the tears run down his face under this blackened sky
as the soil beneath is stained with the blood and of the hopes and dreams
that young man will never be seen to experience again
the red poppy a symbol of remembrance in acknowledgement
tears stream down his loves face as she receives that last telegram
telling her of the tragedy and the sympathies that she cares nothing for
she suffocates unable to take it in
the sound of an unlocked drawer
a gun being cocked
the trembling hand of a wounded soul
the crack of the release and the symphony of sadness is played
as she is at last with her beloved soldier
"Anzac poem"
a man changes his life by the decisions he makes
war changes people and its not for the better
the horrors these young men faced and witnessed
changed them forever nothing is ever going to be the same for them again
surviving the war in itself is a gratifying and acknowledged feat
but it isn’t always lucky.
The men came home from over seas to nothing
Their jobs taken by those who stayed home, their girls taken by those who stayed
Starting again is some people’s dreams, for the soldiers it’s a nightmare
Coming home to nothing when all they need is something makes them wonder if it was worth it?
The battles and the sacrifice these brave young souls made to come back to nothing
Is that fair? Is it justiced?
Being condemned to do what you were forced to do
None of these men wanted the war to happen
None of these men can bare to see there mates slaughtered before them
To watch a man die is horrific enough
To watch the light leave his eyes, to feel his blood splattered on your skin
Burying a mate and saying goodbye to your friend leaves you hollow
Perspectives become confused and men start to question
Is it worth it? The suffering, the disease the heart ache of going home to nothing
Being captured and tortured in prison camps couldn’t lower our spirits we fought
With will and spirit, the freedom taken the will to battle wasn’t over
Our brave Australian boys proved to the world that we are proud to be aussie
We love our country and we will suffer for it.
Until the last breath is taken away.
“War”
the war changes people
it makes people become someone they usually aren’t
in life or death situations you have to make a decision
kill the enemy and be one step closer to freedom
or be killed by the enemy and never see your country win or lose
when a peaceful man is conscripted into the war his whole perspective and priorities
a man that’s never been cruel being forced to murder a man in cold blood is something that no man should go through
we are made to think it’s a necessity but why does everything have to be solved with violence?
Men think that whoever is strongest is the best to be leader
However is strength all that matters in diplomacy?
You may be an iron man but can you stand up and tell your country what to do?
Can you stand up for the rights of your country in front of others and not be afraid of what other leaders will think?
War doesn’t solve anything it takes away and it ruins
The many millions of men that had families
The millions of litres of blood spilt on the soils of battle sites
Destruction is all around
The men that do survive carry the images of their best friends and comrades falling dead beside them knowing it should have been them dead instead
Those brave soldiers forced to do what no man should have to
Its an injustice to life and it disgraces those that invoke war
People fight in the wars for different reasons but they all strive for the same goal
To be free and to be able to be safe from the threat of other countries
What does war solve?
The millions of widows and heart broken fathers losing a son is losing a part of a father
Losing a life is difficult; losing a loved one is like ripping a piece out of ones soul
War is pointless and it serves no purpose to life
Too many lives have been lost
Too many hearts broken
Lives ruined
forever
Poems of a soldier
"Tale of a Soldier"
a man changes his life by the decisions he makes
many young men’s lives were changed with the war
these young naive souls thought they could all be heroes
they get sent to the battle with high spirits
together the men beside him are all his brothers in arms
together they all strive for the same thing
bonded together for the safety of the mother land
at the start they think its all fun and games
until the first man dies
he stands still as his mate and brother in arms besides him is shot dead
the blood splattering as the bullet hits him between the eyes
he freezes up in panic covered in the blood of his comrade
for the first time in this young mans life he feels true fear
he starts to think of home
his family, his love, oh his sweet love
never to see them again
he charges swearing to avenge his fallen comrade
the tears run down his face under this blackened sky
as the soil beneath is stained with the blood and of the hopes and dreams
that young man will never be seen to experience again
the red poppy a symbol of remembrance in acknowledgement
tears stream down his loves face as she receives that last telegram
telling her of the tragedy and the sympathies that she cares nothing for
she suffocates unable to take it in
the sound of an unlocked drawer
a gun being cocked
the trembling hand of a wounded soul
the crack of the release and the symphony of sadness is played
as she is at last with her beloved soldier
"Anzac poem"
a man changes his life by the decisions he makes
war changes people and its not for the better
the horrors these young men faced and witnessed
changed them forever nothing is ever going to be the same for them again
surviving the war in itself is a gratifying and acknowledged feat
but it isn’t always lucky.
The men came home from over seas to nothing
Their jobs taken by those who stayed home, their girls taken by those who stayed
Starting again is some people’s dreams, for the soldiers it’s a nightmare
Coming home to nothing when all they need is something makes them wonder if it was worth it?
The battles and the sacrifice these brave young souls made to come back to nothing
Is that fair? Is it justiced?
Being condemned to do what you were forced to do
None of these men wanted the war to happen
None of these men can bare to see there mates slaughtered before them
To watch a man die is horrific enough
To watch the light leave his eyes, to feel his blood splattered on your skin
Burying a mate and saying goodbye to your friend leaves you hollow
Perspectives become confused and men start to question
Is it worth it? The suffering, the disease the heart ache of going home to nothing
Being captured and tortured in prison camps couldn’t lower our spirits we fought
With will and spirit, the freedom taken the will to battle wasn’t over
Our brave Australian boys proved to the world that we are proud to be aussie
We love our country and we will suffer for it.
Until the last breath is taken away.
“War”
the war changes people
it makes people become someone they usually aren’t
in life or death situations you have to make a decision
kill the enemy and be one step closer to freedom
or be killed by the enemy and never see your country win or lose
when a peaceful man is conscripted into the war his whole perspective and priorities
a man that’s never been cruel being forced to murder a man in cold blood is something that no man should go through
we are made to think it’s a necessity but why does everything have to be solved with violence?
Men think that whoever is strongest is the best to be leader
However is strength all that matters in diplomacy?
You may be an iron man but can you stand up and tell your country what to do?
Can you stand up for the rights of your country in front of others and not be afraid of what other leaders will think?
War doesn’t solve anything it takes away and it ruins
The many millions of men that had families
The millions of litres of blood spilt on the soils of battle sites
Destruction is all around
The men that do survive carry the images of their best friends and comrades falling dead beside them knowing it should have been them dead instead
Those brave soldiers forced to do what no man should have to
Its an injustice to life and it disgraces those that invoke war
People fight in the wars for different reasons but they all strive for the same goal
To be free and to be able to be safe from the threat of other countries
What does war solve?
The millions of widows and heart broken fathers losing a son is losing a part of a father
Losing a life is difficult; losing a loved one is like ripping a piece out of ones soul
War is pointless and it serves no purpose to life
Too many lives have been lost
Too many hearts broken
Lives ruined
forever
introduction to thy poetry
Well gorgeous ladies, and gentlemen,
It seems that this blog is going to be developed along with my amazing and long time friend, jessica elise (www.jnatural.blogspot.com) check her out she is amazing :). well as i have a promise to keep im going to publish more blogs, and it seems fitting that i will start to publish some of my poetry and when arranged other blogs. I have got to warn you all though, i dont think youll read all my poetry any time soon so to those who find this exciting i hope you do enjoy what i publish and to those who dont i wont even bother mentioning my care factor. So thank you readers and enjoy! :)
Dark Story
AKA Shane
It seems that this blog is going to be developed along with my amazing and long time friend, jessica elise (www.jnatural.blogspot.com) check her out she is amazing :). well as i have a promise to keep im going to publish more blogs, and it seems fitting that i will start to publish some of my poetry and when arranged other blogs. I have got to warn you all though, i dont think youll read all my poetry any time soon so to those who find this exciting i hope you do enjoy what i publish and to those who dont i wont even bother mentioning my care factor. So thank you readers and enjoy! :)
Dark Story
AKA Shane
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Me, everthing thats important.
Well life is a mystery, it holds the ultimate unexpectancies for us. Sometimes it has its ups and it has its downs, personally i believe that when the sun shines, it dulls life down. If anyone has taken the time to notice, how much more colour is visible and vibrant when the clouds are covering the sun. Life is alot like that, its not always in the shining times of our lives where we find the best things, its in our battles with the dark where we overcome our fears and demons, in a ironic way, i believe its the fallen that get saved in the end. Even if life beats them beyond possible hope theres always someone who will be willing to spare some of their rays of light to help you. Those are the people that matter, the ones who should be held dear to your heart. Life is not about the happy times or the bad ones. Its about the battles and the sacrifices you make to get there, the things that come out of each decision you make, the regrets that tie in with life. Each decision you make has a purpose whether it be the right one or the wrong one it does not matter, take it and battle on to the next decision. Not every choice will be the wrong one its the right ones that matter the most.
Everyone has friends on whom they depend, whether they be male or female it does not matter, friends are friends, they help shape who you are because no one can stand alone. No matter how much you try there will be times you need friends to help you stand and fight the next battle, ones who will be willing to fall with you. One of the best quotes in relation to this is the one where it says, "The best friend wont bail you out of jail but sit in jail with you and admit that you screwed up" They are the friends that wont stand with you but will cowardly watch you fall then make out to be the saviors.
Even the worst of people are capable of loving someone, so never think that its too late. It just hurts you more and more. Love does not always have to be with another person in the sense that they are your special bonded partner, love comes in many different forms and it tells us alot about who we are. Even the purest of loves can have a few kinks and knots in it, its the determination to work and unravel those knots and kinks do you find the true eternal bliss within. Without love your never really whole. There is always something that will share your heart with your soul.
Now to make this a little more about me because im selfish and it is my blog so its meant to be about me even though it sounds a little not right, well there are some really precious people in my life that i have to spend some time to talk about, because its without these people that i will not be who i am today, even though i find it easy to criticise my self my friends do not think the same way as i do. Magically enough they see the good in me and that in itself means the world to me, so it is in this blog that i will dedicate a paragraph to my best friends and what they mean to me as i think that is fitting. But a little more before i begin those stories. Friends and my love for them is a bond i share with them uncapable of putting into words yet i shall try my hardest. Now to begin.
James, my brother. Even though we are not blood related i know you will always have a place in my heart, you have shown me the good in me and have taught me many of things, you have taught me to appreciate friends, to take a chance with life and that im never alone. You are a true legend, without you id be a wreck. You took the time to get to know the real me not what others see me to be. Without that chance i wouldnt have the great friend i have today. Thank you.
Jess, your just soo incredibly amazing. You have taught me so much, youve opened up life and a happiness in my heart. You are beautiful and believe me your heart and soul shine with a fierce light. do not let anyone get you down most importantly never let things get to you, my heart is connected to yours and every pain you feel i do too. I will always be here as your friend and you mean so much to me that to put it into words is just unfathomable, you have stood up to me and for your beliefs and i have an unbreakable respect for you. Thank you jess for everything.
Josh, Mate your just an icon to me, someone i envy with an undeniable force. You are one of the coolest and most admirable people i know, you have patience with everyone and you have a kind and enduring heart. Even when people try and get you down you dont let them get to you, you have made my days durable and often provided me with a valuable distraction and warm sympathetic view of opinion that i respect and listen to. You have always stood by me and have understood me well, your someone i trust and will always have time for. Thank you
Tayla, the one that i cant put into words, You are just the most incredible, beautiful, amazing, cute, adorable and the definition of perfection. You have fought alongside me all the time and you will always fight with me, nothing can ever get in the way of us, and youve taught me to love, you unlocked everything i am today, you picked me up off the ground and saved me a many miserable occasions many that i want to forget but i dont as they bring us closer and closer, you mean the world to me and i swear you are an angel, your my guardian you protect me and even when im wounded you get me through i can always count on you and there will be nothing to stop me from giving everything i am to save you, no matter what comes at us ill fight till the end, you are my light in the dark the one who stitches up my broken heart finds the shattered fragments and puts them back together without you id be nothing, i dont want to ever be without you. Thank you tayla for being who you are, i will always have a love for you and a connection with your soul, your the most valuable jewel in the world, your worth more than the world to me.
my friends are my important treasures, sure material things stimulate me, but they cannot bring permanent happiness, they are the light in the dark and they are our saviors. And it is with that i end this blog and thank you all for reading it, it means alot and it is me pouring my heart and soul. Mock me all you like those of you who do, those comments are meaningless all of those who accept and admire this then i thank you from the deepest part of me. Thankyou
Everyone has friends on whom they depend, whether they be male or female it does not matter, friends are friends, they help shape who you are because no one can stand alone. No matter how much you try there will be times you need friends to help you stand and fight the next battle, ones who will be willing to fall with you. One of the best quotes in relation to this is the one where it says, "The best friend wont bail you out of jail but sit in jail with you and admit that you screwed up" They are the friends that wont stand with you but will cowardly watch you fall then make out to be the saviors.
Even the worst of people are capable of loving someone, so never think that its too late. It just hurts you more and more. Love does not always have to be with another person in the sense that they are your special bonded partner, love comes in many different forms and it tells us alot about who we are. Even the purest of loves can have a few kinks and knots in it, its the determination to work and unravel those knots and kinks do you find the true eternal bliss within. Without love your never really whole. There is always something that will share your heart with your soul.
Now to make this a little more about me because im selfish and it is my blog so its meant to be about me even though it sounds a little not right, well there are some really precious people in my life that i have to spend some time to talk about, because its without these people that i will not be who i am today, even though i find it easy to criticise my self my friends do not think the same way as i do. Magically enough they see the good in me and that in itself means the world to me, so it is in this blog that i will dedicate a paragraph to my best friends and what they mean to me as i think that is fitting. But a little more before i begin those stories. Friends and my love for them is a bond i share with them uncapable of putting into words yet i shall try my hardest. Now to begin.
James, my brother. Even though we are not blood related i know you will always have a place in my heart, you have shown me the good in me and have taught me many of things, you have taught me to appreciate friends, to take a chance with life and that im never alone. You are a true legend, without you id be a wreck. You took the time to get to know the real me not what others see me to be. Without that chance i wouldnt have the great friend i have today. Thank you.
Jess, your just soo incredibly amazing. You have taught me so much, youve opened up life and a happiness in my heart. You are beautiful and believe me your heart and soul shine with a fierce light. do not let anyone get you down most importantly never let things get to you, my heart is connected to yours and every pain you feel i do too. I will always be here as your friend and you mean so much to me that to put it into words is just unfathomable, you have stood up to me and for your beliefs and i have an unbreakable respect for you. Thank you jess for everything.
Josh, Mate your just an icon to me, someone i envy with an undeniable force. You are one of the coolest and most admirable people i know, you have patience with everyone and you have a kind and enduring heart. Even when people try and get you down you dont let them get to you, you have made my days durable and often provided me with a valuable distraction and warm sympathetic view of opinion that i respect and listen to. You have always stood by me and have understood me well, your someone i trust and will always have time for. Thank you
Tayla, the one that i cant put into words, You are just the most incredible, beautiful, amazing, cute, adorable and the definition of perfection. You have fought alongside me all the time and you will always fight with me, nothing can ever get in the way of us, and youve taught me to love, you unlocked everything i am today, you picked me up off the ground and saved me a many miserable occasions many that i want to forget but i dont as they bring us closer and closer, you mean the world to me and i swear you are an angel, your my guardian you protect me and even when im wounded you get me through i can always count on you and there will be nothing to stop me from giving everything i am to save you, no matter what comes at us ill fight till the end, you are my light in the dark the one who stitches up my broken heart finds the shattered fragments and puts them back together without you id be nothing, i dont want to ever be without you. Thank you tayla for being who you are, i will always have a love for you and a connection with your soul, your the most valuable jewel in the world, your worth more than the world to me.
my friends are my important treasures, sure material things stimulate me, but they cannot bring permanent happiness, they are the light in the dark and they are our saviors. And it is with that i end this blog and thank you all for reading it, it means alot and it is me pouring my heart and soul. Mock me all you like those of you who do, those comments are meaningless all of those who accept and admire this then i thank you from the deepest part of me. Thankyou
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